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Dr. Carrie Elk
war to love retreat
May 29, 2017
A Veteran’s Salute
An empty glass stares back at me,
holding my secrets under lock and key.
My mind has toiled the dangers done,
after my body has been out run.
I never knew that losing a war,
could harden my heart to the core.
But a war of my own making,
was never the game I’d thought I’d be taking.
My brothers keep marching up ahead,
and the silence left screams in my head.
I’m home and safe, yet somehow seem to have lost my faith.
No matter how hard I try, I cannot rid myself of this lie.
The one that tells me how little I mean,
to those around me but especially my team.
It feels like I’ve left my friends to finish a fight,
that surely was one of my own plight.
I can hardly motivate myself for a day’s task,
let alone try and remove this mask.
My wife no longer seems to notice,
but I cannot blame her since I’ve removed her motive.
I hardly recognize the warrior I used to be,
it’s a shame to even call the man in the mirror me.
But when the sun sets and I lay down my head,
a gentle reminder begins to be fed.
I remember the patriots who gave up their life,
so I could return and hold my dear wife.
For the chance to raise my children where freedom is rule,
and seek to make the future greater with that as a tool.
I recall their great courage, their love and their honor,
how could I continue to ruin my morrow.
With a gift such as this, I raise my salute,
to the fighters of colors that have deeply took root.
It’s a salute I will give, with the promise to live.
-From Chapter 10 of Leaving War, Finding Love by Hillary Sigrist
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